Breaking the Promise

Did I break it? Was I not able to control myself! These are the questions many asked me after my last post.

Yesssssssss. I broke my promise and again started watching anime. There are no excuses for it.

This is one of the points that I will never forget in my life.

So, it was true that I was not able to control myself. All including myself was blaming these habits. It maybe was troublesome to others but this was a big mistake for me.

I always tried to live my life as a protagonist. Let me explain, whatever I do and I mean whatever I do there is a voice in my head narrating the things that are going along and comparing it to me.

From when I was a child I remember that I never wanted to be normal, whether in a competition or anything. That thing running on me till now.

If you would have read most of my post till now. You would have gathered that I really hate all people who make fun of my dreams or say that I would not be able to achieve it.

Well, it turns out that my new dream was to prove them wrong rather than doing what I wanted to do. Hatred has again started to rise inside of me. My mind is really like that of a writer. Quickly it keeps making drafts of everything that’s been going on.

I try to make amends but it quickly fails cause that’s not what my heart really wants. Yep, it’s true that I am an introvert who really hated reality and quickly shifts to an imaginary world rather than facing the situation.

But I want to improve myself slowly and steadily. Anime is the thing that keeps my heart pure. I would prefer to lose some bad habits of mine rather than losing the things I love.

So, yeah! Sorry to people who I have made sad. It would be pretty bad if I tried to hide it from you guys.

This diary is a way for me to get back into reality, after all !!

Anyway, thanks soo much for reading my posts!! If you liked it, prefer to subscribe to my website and thanks to a certain person for reminding me of this!

Sayonara is back !!!


Weeks after !

I always used to thought that by reading more and knowing in depth about this world will give you a clear picture but is it just me or I find this more confusing. WHO KNOWS !!

After reading through a thousand memes of the unsatisfactory reality of the year 2020, I do find that we all keep our faith and hopes in the person we even don’t know about instead of doing it ourselves. So, I would like that for this year I wanna have more confidence in me.

Less Expectation and more enjoyment, these are the goals for me this year.

Anyway, I always wanted to discuss these things with you guys. As a fellow student of science and also avid reader of mythological books. I often find it difficult to cover all the gaps. I actually find the contracting points quite interesting and I wanted to go more depth in it. So, this year is for the all the missing points, more books, more mythologies and better writing skill.

So, I wanted to know from you guys what points do you wanted to fill for this year. Just comment in the box and I hope that this year will be fantastic for you guys !!

See you guys soon !!



Taking out some minutes during is not so tough but I am really lazy enough for that.

So, sorry for the delay everyone and I wish you a Happy New Year!

You know what I was the type of person who would think that why It has to be Happy, I mean for me from the first day it was considered normal.

But then I read the book ” As a Man thinketh” by James Allen and It was great.

It wanted to express that most of the situation we have in our life is a result of what thoughts we have inside us. Positive thinking breeds positive results and vice versa.

So, I thought let this year be good and Happy for all of us!

I wanna read more and more books, be strong mentally as well as spiritually and also to learn new things !!

I would be so happy if you guys wanna tell me what will be your small goals this year. Tell me in the comments.

And again, A happy new year!


To Sacrifice!

We all have heard this as we were a kid and even now that when you want to achieve your highest dream, You have to give up your closest thing. 😠😈

This marks that you are in no mode of joking and you are 100% serious. So, as you all know I wanted to get to my dreams but my laziness and sense of comfort don’t allowed it.

So, I thought about what was the closest thing to me. Of course, I can’t give up on my food and stuff. So, I thought that one thing that is very much close to me is Anime and Manga.

Therefore, I made the ultimate Sacrifice, Till the day I reach my Dreams I won’t watch a single episode or read a single chapter of the manga.😢😢

I made this vow 3 days ago and its been going good although It hurts inside but still, it’s worth it!😣

So guys tell me if there is something you want to achieve and if yes, what is that you can sacrifice!!😁😁

Hope you enjoyed this post, till next time!!!


Being Honest!

One of my friends asked me one day out of many blogs you have written how many of it, do you actually follow. Well, I said to be completely honest, very few of it.

The very reason I wanted to write was not that I am the one practicing it or preaching it. It is because we humans learn by mistake, i.e either done by us or by others. If we could learn by those mistakes we humans could grow as a society without repeating those mistakes.

I won’t be giving an excuse or anything. I wanted to write to you guys, not me.

Sorry for this super boring post! The next one will be funny, I promise !!!


Tribute To Indian Army!!!

It was the day of 14th of Feb, the all famous valentine day. The whole of our nation was in good mood when an unfortunate thing happened. That destroyed many of our families.

Militants of a terrorist organization crashed theirs SUV with a bus of the army who were returning towards the border. The SUV contained about 300 Kg of explosives and when that crashed, the whole army bus turned to ashes.

44 army men were killed and many were gravely injured. A terrorist organization claimed the responsibility of this attack.

Even till now, the whole nation is in shock and anger but the people who are suffering the most are the families of the great men.

I never will understand what type of ideology do these terrorist have. Are Human lives so easy to kill? Is there no value to it. The families of those people will now forever cry. What mistakes did they do to see this momement.

There are many people who work for themselves and feed their families but there are some who see the whole nation as their family and even then, they deserved this?

It has been 72 years since the independence of India. But even after all these years the sneaky attacks of our neighbor keep growing. We were the followers of Gandhi, who said to preach non-violence so that one day, even the enemies will understand our feelings.

But isn’t going to far. Why does the one who cares about the Nation’s people and risk their lives have to die?

Even till now, the terrorist are accepting that by doing this types of attack they will go to heaven. Is it true? At some point I used to think that the most expensive thing in human world is a life because it is not so easy to give life rather than to take one!

I am sorry but this time I really don’t have a conclusion because I don’t know whether they will stop or not. Will there be a day when the ruthless killings will be stopped. Will there be ever be a day, when no father or mother have to cry to see their dead son.

I don’t know all of this but I certainly want something and believe me, that is revenge to all those people who pulled up this incident and those who try to harm and destroy the peace of our Nation.

Maybe this is the time when we have to abort our non-violence scheme because as I have seen They are not going to improve at all.

May their soul rest in peace

When do you think people die?

When they are killed with bullets?

Die with old age ? or when they fight in wars?

People die when they are forgotten.

So, never forget these who died to protect us and even now, they are not willing to back down.

Salute to Indian Army!!!


Our Precarious Future (A.I)

No matter how much I like to view Artificial Intelligence in good way there will be always who see it as the ending of human civilization.

I have been a fan of A.I since a quite time now but when I reached college, I thought this is the time that I have to do something about it. I have to learn everything about it. So at first I started watching YouTube for it and god!. There is a hell of hatred towards it.

Sure there were people who saw it as a good thing that is revolutionizing the world and it will be always helping us. Every professor said this line at the ending “A.I are just tools to help us humans. it’s up to us whether we use it for our wellbeing or other’s destruction”.

But a question pop up in my mind whether we are controlling them or they will be controlling us, remember it’s never about them, it’s always about us.

See around us and observe there is Laptop, Smartphones, T.V and quite gaming objects available. Do you think that non-living things can harm us ? Well think again and see that how human are obsessed over them. Harming their eyes, playing non-stop daily, removing every social-life and becoming a maniac.

I got that it comes up to the choice of us, that whether we can use it as per our wellbeing rather than discomfort or destruction.

A.I will be a very important tool that is available now in a very small quantity but it will soon be available over the place making the work of humans quite easy.

Some people say it will take the jobs of humans. Well, sure it will take that job but it is certain that it will also open many new and different job sector for them.

As many say, History repeats itself . See the industrial revolutions and many other’s, it will destroy some jobs but soon make places for many others.

Now it always come down us to how to use it, whether we let them take control over us by loosing our self or we get benefited by it.

Many people say, it will lead to new type of war and I really don’t know what to say about it. There have been already two World Wars and many massacre between us humans due to land, religion and many more reasons. Do you think a machine can cause more?

I am currently learning machine leaning and if anyone of you know much about A.I course, pls help me to reach a certain level as I really want to learn this beautiful topic. I will be waiting for your comments.

Thank you for reading and I hope that you have watched these movies, The Matrix, The Terminator, I- robot and many more. These are awesome movie and I really want to prove them wrong.

Until next time



Why It Failed Last Year?

Hey guys! Happy new year’s eve. It’s 9 hours more to welcome 2019 in India. Well, guys, I hope that many of you might be thinking about what new year resolutions to make for this year and many of you might also have made yours. Well, guys allow me to tell you my conversation with my best friend, Ad about his new year resolutions.

Me: Hey man! What’s your new year resolutions for 2019?

Ad: Nothing man! That same old stuff only.

Me: Those? Healthy eating, waking up early, exercise daily and all other stuff?

Ad: Yeah! This year I’m not even making any resolution because I read an article yesterday that if you can’t follow your decisions and see it through the end then you will end up having a bad habit of dropping everything and a mindset that ‘I fail at whatever I start’ so why even bother to make resolutions.

Me: Yeah man! That’s quite right. It does work this way but you should have read something else also which would have helped you in deciding to make this year resolution and this year miraculously completing them.

Ad: Really? What thing?

Me: Yeah, sure! I’ll tell you mine about what I read, practised and it’s tried and true. A more personalized one.

Ad: Oh! shoot, then.

We all can relate to my friend Ad and I can even relate more because actually, Ad is me. More specifically, Ad is me from last year! Let me clarify! Actually last year I was same as Ad, sceptical about making new year resolution and confident enough that I won’t complete them. So, then, how am I different than last year Adit? Actually not much different but yes psychologically I have undergone quite a change! And as a part of that today I’m here to teach Ad about how to make a new year resolution and seeing it through the end.

What’ wrong?

So 1st of all I wanna say that the way every other person make new year resolution is actually not a complete way of making it. Allow me to explain. Let’s say that I make a new year resolution ‘to get leaner and fit this year and become more health conscious’. This statement will tell my mind only about ‘what I want to do’. But that’s not enough message for our mind to make it stick with the new year resolution. Then what more to do?

Doing it the right way!

Telling my mind only about ‘what to do’ won’t suffice. Our mind needs an action plan to work on and follow the required steps to complete the given task. So, I need to chart an action plan for my health goal and this is how I did it.

Well, it’s my unfiltered 2019 resolution for health and special interests included as well. I hope y’all understood what I’m trying to convey. So, now that action plan is ready what’s next?

Moving a step further

The last thing that I wanna knows that after all these work I didn’t complete my 2019 resolutions. Well, that hurts! So, the next thing I need to do that I check my action plan daily and chunk it too weekly and monthly achievable goals and audit them as the week or month end. This way I’ll be able to keep a check on my progress and in turn, it’ll motivate me further to accomplish more. One more thing, to be specific Y’all need to make a goal in 6 aspects of life, they are

  1. Health and body
  2. Career and success
  3. Wealth
  4. Relationship
  5. Personal Interests
  6. Physical Objects (like what you want, eg a new car, a watch, etc)

PS. Make your goal as specific and clear so that a 6-year-old can read it and understand it coz that’s the clarity that it takes to make your mind understand the task wholly and chart on the mission to accomplish it.

Reason for so much hassle

That’s all folks! I decided to write on this topic because I wanted to share how I’m designing my resolution and in the hope that it might help my readers also. And there’s one more reason to publicly share my knowledge because now that I have delivered my plan to Y’all then now I have to be accountable on this to all my reader and if I might slack off then there’ll be someone who might poke me and remind me about my goal. And it’s especially about delivering my quality content to you throughout the year and publish 150 posts this year. It’s my motive to provide value through all my posts to my reader and be of some help. Every minute spent on reading my article must be well utilised by Y’all. It’s quite a commitment I need to work on through this year. Thank you guys for reading and be with me till last of this long post. Your comments are most welcome and if you’d like then do share about your resolutions and how you’re gonna achieve it.

Let us all crush it in 2019.

Wishing Y’all a very happy and prosperous 2K19.

Peace. A. Continue reading “Why It Failed Last Year?”

Freedom !!!

This is just Stupid as it gets. I feel awkward already.

Hey everyone. Sorry, I am late. I know I promised that I will keep updating new posts. But life, huh!!

Just kidding. I was being lazy and also that I was concentrating my mind on a different thing. Do me a favor and read the following Poem to understand my pain, jk !!!

Why I am doing it?

Am I forcing it? But I wanted to enjoy it!

Am I being held up by shackles?

or this is just my thought!

I want to be free

Completely Free

Free of other’s opinion

Free of other ideology

Whoever that maybe !!

But sometimes, I think

The Freedom I wanted to achieve

was right in front of me!

but, I don’t know why?

I wanted to make a story

for others to follow

by which my heart is now completely shallow!

No more Proving, no more panic

You can go to hell

Cause my heart is ready to rollin !!

I know !! Stupid Right. I am sorry everyone, but I have nothing more to say. These days, I am trying my best to find the truth myself but it is hard. The whole month was a rollercoaster ride, trying new things. I can say I am finally enjoying college but I never want to stop.

I hope to meet you all soon. Till next time, Sayonara !!!

Dice of Gamble’s !!!

Hi, there …! I’m Eshwar P V, a fellow friend of yours. I’m pursuing my studies in Information science engineering at Bangalore.This is my first blog and I shall pull you into my fantasy world of my ancient war myth story ,which had been haunting in my mind for past 3 years, and I would like to say a word of gratitude to my fellow buddy Anubhav Sinha, who invited and been very supportive in this try of mine.

An epic of 100 BC, An Era where by conquering mere lands, the Kings felt as the gods of the blue planet and the kings of kings, the emperors conceited as the lords of universe, who themselves forgot they were miniscule creatures, created by the creator of the universe, the almighty itself.

By the selfish semblance of crowned heads, the blood shedding, blood thirsty soldiers were made to be believe that ‘War’ was a divine art and they were the skilled artists of it, the artists who painted the war fields with BLOOD and the face of many with tears.

The astute warlords superstitiously fantasized the warriors as, slaughtering men was the highest veneration towards their almighty rather than slaughtering bulls. The God hallucinated soldiers believed, they possess no weakness, but the monarchs planted the weakness in the disguise of Divinity towards Almighty and harvested the victory from them.

The men ploughing lands were slandered as dastard and imbecile minded soldiers were dignified as prima donna. It was the age were instead of water, Crops fostered with the Blood of men who thrived to defend their lands.
Among the self-acclaiming godly kings, there existed a true demon, a Emperor who was fearsomely infamous for his pure evilness, a war against his kingdom was to be called as war against hell and the soldiers were feared as devils with shields and swords, as the king was a form of pure cruelty, ruling the empire of hell. Even the bravest souls would feel weak to knees and nerves, when the name of his was whispered. But the kings were at peace as the demon never declared war across continents, they saw the oceans separating the empire of his and others as separation between hell and heaven as the rulers of land was devil and self-praised godly kings.

But this humanly demon had immense balance of evilness and clemency, this was seen in the hearts of people of his dynasty, they felt blessed to be born in this god’s own monarchy of pleasure ruled by a demigod. It was a heavenly abode for the people in his empire and a hell on earth for the king who even disrespected any aspect of the kingdom. The demonly king was infamous across oceans for his perfect blend of inhuman physique and wit, which was widely spoken while mentioning his inhuman acts which would make even real devils fear and would put gods in rage and tears as they would be reminded, they didn’t possess the fortitude to against him.

They didn’t fear death, they feared death by his means. Death by his means was excruciating pain and catastrophe for both king and the kingdom, and there wouldn’t be a single rock mentioning even the name of kingdom which were devastated by him, the kingdoms would be vanished from history and there existed no people alive to speak of perished dynasties, it was seen as man made natural disasters which left no trace of existence.

I hope that you enjoy the 1st Preview of my story, pls pls pls give me a feedback on how it presented it to you !!

Thanks so much for reading.

It’s happening: Climate Change

From the day human started to understand ecology and their environment, they started to grow.

As they Evolve over time and reached at the top of The Food Chain they forget one important thing, to care about the ecology.

Experts have already said that only 3 years have left in which we can do something about Climate Change. Else, the ending is Inevitable.

Do we want it ? To become all powerless at the face of nature’s horror. We can curse all we want, to anyone we can. But this time the cause is us.

Despite several warning, we aren’t improvising then why would the others. Please my fellow people understand

” Don’t wait for that horror day to come, let’s work from now to change that future”.

Watch the links to understand what you can do to save the future !

Thanks for understanding and reading this blog. If you enjoyed, consider following and sharing.

Sayonara !!!

Reaching the Im -Possible

I usually write when I am sort of high, not on drugs or anything but of ideas. A new one just struck down.

When we were children we all wished something that was not possible back then? It may be simple as anything but time didn’t permit it there.

Even the thought of it was exciting enough for you that sent a chill down to your bones but does it happens now? Isn’t that unusual?

You once cried for that “Thing” or “object” but once it is achieved that sort of craze and excitement goes away and all seems normal and usual like it was the sort that was supposed to happen.

When I was small, I wished for a cycle. Surely enough, my Father bought me that. It was good and cool for some days but soon it vanished.

As I kept on growing on my checklist of wish keeps growing just like everyone else’s; mobile, laptop, Unlimited WiFi and many more. You see, I have all of them now but the lust for new things keeps growing and old ones fading away.

If you have known me for a while or have read my blogs, you should have known that I don’t want to go the typical way. So, I tried controlling it.

Well as you know the mind is a pretty messy place and controlling it is like taming a destructive bull, SO I thought of a new thing. Giving it a dream that is almost achievable to see how much my lust grows to achieve that.

Surely Enough, the Items I mentioned was purchased by my Father but not be me but this one’s mine and I will try my best to be excited and keep on growing and moving towards it.

you ask what my Goal is, “Well it is to be the greatest AI Innovator of this era and bring about an AI revolution that will change the world forever (think it same as ‘the Terminator’)”.

Isn’t it sound beautiful? Such a heavy dream to carry on. At least I hope my destructive bull will go to its own length for this never-ending journey of striving towards that revolutionary innovation. That will surely take long but let’s see if the bull gets tamed or keep on raging. Whether it loses its will of fire or it keeps on blazing.

Share your ‘im-possible’ goal you are moving toward and amaze the world at least the journey will be exciting and worth sharing. Thanks to y’all much for coming and reading my thoughts. Subscribe and share if you liked the post.


The First Programmer

What do you think programming is? Nowadays, millions of people join C.S engineering without having a Scheme of what Programming is or What a Computer Signifies! They say, how tough these things are and Why they are nothing besides getting a job or so!

Let me Inform you about the Greatest and First Programmer in this world & know this She was a girl !!

Let me Introduce you to “Ada Lovelace“. Many of you may haven’t heard of her but I am sure all of you must have heard about “Charles Babbage”.

He is called the “Father of Computer” because he created the Difference and Analytical Engine which helped to calculate mathematical tasks automatically. Well not without anyone’s help.

He used to work with his student Ada Lovelace who was quite brilliant and excited about these things !

What Charles Babbage thought to make was that of a simple calculator but She didn’t think of that only. She was a poet and a pioneer whose dreams were too powerful for the world.

She introduced to the world that Computers can be more than just Mathematical Machines. She laid out the plans and Ideas that took us 100 years to reach.

Do you know what was the First Program she wrote? She wrote how to compute Bernoulli’s Number in Analytical Engine.

At the time where Bernoulli’s Number was hard enough for even Mathematician to explain, she inscribed that data to Analytical Engine.

Read this following Paragraph to know her Legacy!!

Ada saw something that Babbage in some sense failed to see. In Babbage’s world, his engines were bound by number…What Lovelace saw—what Ada Byron saw(His Father)—was that number could represent entities other than quantity. So once you had a machine for manipulating numbers, if those numbers represented other things, letters, musical notes, then the machine could manipulate symbols of which number was one instance, according to rules. It is this fundamental transition from a machine which is a number cruncher to a machine for manipulating symbols according to rules that is the fundamental transition from calculation to computation—to general-purpose computation—and looking back from the present high ground of modern computing, if we are looking and sifting history for that transition, then that transition was made explicitly by Ada in that 1843 paper.[2]

The Legacy of Ada Lovelace had been running for almost 100 years. People Like Alan Turing, Eckert, and Mauchly(who made the first general computer ENIAC), Grace Hooper(She was the first lady who programmed in a general purpose computer), Steve Jobs, Bill Gates and many more.

These are not just Business minded people. They know how to think of the Future or what the Future Beholds. Our Civilization grows when people start having the courage to dream and work for the future without any Subjugation.

What  a real programmer is, Well you have to think for yourself !!! Comment what part you felt interesting and come back for more. Thank you!!