Breaking the Promise

Did I break it? Was I not able to control myself! These are the questions many asked me after my last post.

Yesssssssss. I broke my promise and again started watching anime. There are no excuses for it.

This is one of the points that I will never forget in my life.

So, it was true that I was not able to control myself. All including myself was blaming these habits. It maybe was troublesome to others but this was a big mistake for me.

I always tried to live my life as a protagonist. Let me explain, whatever I do and I mean whatever I do there is a voice in my head narrating the things that are going along and comparing it to me.

From when I was a child I remember that I never wanted to be normal, whether in a competition or anything. That thing running on me till now.

If you would have read most of my post till now. You would have gathered that I really hate all people who make fun of my dreams or say that I would not be able to achieve it.

Well, it turns out that my new dream was to prove them wrong rather than doing what I wanted to do. Hatred has again started to rise inside of me. My mind is really like that of a writer. Quickly it keeps making drafts of everything that’s been going on.

I try to make amends but it quickly fails cause that’s not what my heart really wants. Yep, it’s true that I am an introvert who really hated reality and quickly shifts to an imaginary world rather than facing the situation.

But I want to improve myself slowly and steadily. Anime is the thing that keeps my heart pure. I would prefer to lose some bad habits of mine rather than losing the things I love.

So, yeah! Sorry to people who I have made sad. It would be pretty bad if I tried to hide it from you guys.

This diary is a way for me to get back into reality, after all !!

Anyway, thanks soo much for reading my posts!! If you liked it, prefer to subscribe to my website and thanks to a certain person for reminding me of this!

Sayonara is back !!!

To Sacrifice!

We all have heard this as we were a kid and even now that when you want to achieve your highest dream, You have to give up your closest thing. 😠😈

This marks that you are in no mode of joking and you are 100% serious. So, as you all know I wanted to get to my dreams but my laziness and sense of comfort don’t allowed it.

So, I thought about what was the closest thing to me. Of course, I can’t give up on my food and stuff. So, I thought that one thing that is very much close to me is Anime and Manga.

Therefore, I made the ultimate Sacrifice, Till the day I reach my Dreams I won’t watch a single episode or read a single chapter of the manga.😢😢

I made this vow 3 days ago and its been going good although It hurts inside but still, it’s worth it!😣

So guys tell me if there is something you want to achieve and if yes, what is that you can sacrifice!!😁😁

Hope you enjoyed this post, till next time!!!

Being Honest!

One of my friends asked me one day out of many blogs you have written how many of it, do you actually follow. Well, I said to be completely honest, very few of it.

The very reason I wanted to write was not that I am the one practicing it or preaching it. It is because we humans learn by mistake, i.e either done by us or by others. If we could learn by those mistakes we humans could grow as a society without repeating those mistakes.

I won’t be giving an excuse or anything. I wanted to write to you guys, not me.

Sorry for this super boring post! The next one will be funny, I promise !!!

Just Ranting

Hey guys! How Y’all doing? Well, this is my 2nd blog post. I wrote my 1st two months ago back in October. Well I thought many times about writing my next one but due to some turmoil in my head, I just didn’t! Well, I’m writing this post just to speak my heart out.

I’m a 19-year guy who is preparing or better to say is supposed to be preparing for the college entrance exam to get into the country’s prestigious engineering college or IIT to be exact. I passed out my high school this year and was supposed to clear the college exam this year only but wasn’t able to crack the prelims even. So, then I decided that I’ll take this year off and again prepare for the 2nd attempt next year. I just didn’t want to take admission in any other private college or anywhere else. Yeah! That’s best or nothing. But this is not the full story or you can say primary reason to take this year off. The primary reason was to discover what I really want to do. To discover me. Yeah! I know that’s a cliche.

Okay! It’s not like I decided this just in a day. It was a mind clutter built up during the 2 years of the high school. I constantly felt that whatever I was trying to follow it just felt insignificant. I was just following the herd that just wanted to get into a good college after school. You might wonder then why I didn’t pursue what I liked to do rather than going through this mess inside the head.

I was a lazy brat throughout the 12-years of school. I just didn’t try to develop any other skill like painting, sketching, dancing, etc. I was a rookie at them but never tried to learn properly. I only concentrated on my studies and scored A’s throughout the school years and then here I was last year feeling so insignificant and lost. I always wanted to be THE ONE, to shine separately in the crowd. I know it’s cliche. Everyone wants that. I was just wishing this until now but now I want to put in the work to be that GREATEST. But, now the only problem is that I still don’t know what I’m truly passionate about. Although I like certain things to do and blogging is one of them.

I know there are many persons confused in life and feeling lost and having the same or almost similar kind of mess in their head. So, I decided to write mine and share with all of my readers. I’m still confused about whether to go to college or just be a dropout and taste and try different things in life to find what I really passionately like to do. I know I’d have that time in my college years and after that also but it’s just I don’t want to put in the money in college to just to discover that. It’s just not the right kind of deal but…! There’s always a but. I know that and I’m starting on my journey to kick those but’s away. *wink.

Well, guys from today onward I’ll consistently post on this blog in every 3 to 4 days and at most every week. If there’s some topic you’d like me to write, do mention that in comments below. If you liked to read this kind of diary entry thing then do tell me if I should write this kind of content or not.

Peace. A.

PEACE! IS THAT IT?

I want to convey my feelings to this matter which have been in my head from some time.

The following part is from the anime Naruto and I’m conveying this account only to make a reference to my topic.

You may skip this part if you want!

The 4th Shinobi World War has ended. Madara Uchiha has lost, Hashirama goes towards him.

The conversation be like :-

Madara: Hashirama is that you?

Hashirama: Hmm

Madara: I guess neither you, nor I could achieve what we wanted.
Hashirama: It’s never that easy. Our job is to do all we can while we’re alive and then bequeath the rest for future generations to accomplish.
Madara: So naive.. as usual. you.. were always.. the optimist. But perhaps.. that is the correct path. My dream.. was squashed. But your dream.. still lives on.
Hashirama: We were both too hasty. We didn’t need to fulfill our realms ourselves. it was more important to cultivate those who would come after us, to whom we could entrust our dreams.
Madara: Which means I would’ve failed anyway. Since I’ve always hated someone.. standing behind me.
Hashirama: When we were kids, you once said we’re shinobi and we don’t know when we’ll die. And that for neither side to die, we’d both have to reveal what’s inside of us and pour each other drinks to toast like brothers. But we’re both about to die. Right now, we can drink together, as war buddies.
Madara: War buddies.. huh? Well.. I guess.. that’s okay..

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Now let’s start,

Recently I researched on the WWI and WWII. The story left me a huge impact on me. That era was hardest for all people.

So I thought why war started even at first when we all know it’ll be destruction for all people. I read the journeys of people survived in WWII and damn, it was even hard to read.

According to me, war is the society’s biggest biggest failure, to protect the people of the earth. Sometimes, we are so much caught up in this Nation, that Nation. We forget that we all are human beings. Believe me, I feel no difference between a people of different nation and me.

Why does humans like to kill other humans. I searched the internet and got a conclusion that it always happens due to reasons like food, land, water, and minerals and revenge and religious and due to civil reasons.

I don’t understand why can’t we all share the things we have with each other! Why can’t we all be a little kind? Is this the real meaning of development, that we all become heartless as we grow up. If this is going to be like this, then seriously I don’t see point in development.

I seriously thought at one time, that religion was for the good of people. To make them follows a certain rules to live but I never thought it will be such a big reason for war. Why we can’t live a life quietly? Why we have to poke everyone’s belief? Religion is not a thing we are born into, it is about being born into a group of people following certain rules for living which our ancestors thought will be a good for us.

Well all I want to ask from this entire human race is PEACE. Can’t we all follow the ideology of treating others like a human instead of treating like aliens, slaughtering and discarding them fearing that others will feed on our resources. I know that today the era we’re living in is the best from all the time since this earth has formed and I proudly say that I feel LUCKY to be born during this era and living through this peace. All I want to ask is not to disturb this peace but will my and many other’s wish will be listened by others? That only time will tell!

What I feel is the only way we gotta have peace is to drop the two nefarious things that we have in our mind “ego” and “attitude”. We should prefer to be kind and generous. Slowly by slowly these behavior are going to change the world in a better way!

I believe that we can bring the change we want in the world by changing ourselves, so do you??

Thank you so much for reading this and share it if you like the message. Again Special thanks to Aditya Raj for giving help.

The Meaning behind festival!!!

Happy Diwali to all.

Hello again and sorry for the delay. This time around I want to talk about my realization. Seriously, doubting yourself is bad but checking your ideas is good.

Not going off the topic, I will state directly what I want to say. At one point of time of my life, my confidence towards God was totally destroyed. All I wanted was logic and fact behind every happenings and I couldn’t find them in every aspect of them. Proof about it was very less and all that remained was stories. In my small mind, my inner-self wanted to find the answer about it. After failing to find any, I was disgusted. So I refused to believe in it.

But again sometimes, your life exactly gives you the lesson you wanted to learn. If you have read this Post you would have found the confusion I was in. The dilemma was too much. But I guess blogging was the best thing to find all the answer I was looking for.

The meaning of God has changed so much throughout time. I don’t know whatever I am saying is true or not but according to me, the meaning was often misunderstood. Who said that to enjoy a festival you have to be a soul believer in god. At least, so many people join with their family on this occasion. Isn’t the reunion worth it? All working people, finally get 2-3 day holiday for enjoying with their families.

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We talk about temples in far land or why we should go there but don’t you find all the adventure waiting there. As we all know ” Journey is more important than the destination”. We all read much thought but we never relate them to our daily life in many matters. Imagine one day, a family thought of visiting a temple on some another place, they took a vehicle to reach there, having enough enjoyment on the journey. Eating, taking a glimpse at wonders of nature and taking halts along the journey with their loved ones whom they never had enough time to pass.

Doesn’t it sound wonderful? Try to understand the meaning behind everything. The gradual increase in intolerant ideology can harm people as nobody else could. Many of my friends don’t believe in God, does it mean I should stop talking to them. No, not at all. Try to understand Believing in God is not compulsory. Religion doesn’t mean what we understand. It is a way to live on this earth to enjoy, your ideology, your rules. As long as we understand this and try not to hurt the beliefs of others it doesn’t matter.

I am very sorry if you got hurt by any of my words, I never try to hurt the sentiments of others. But I will write what I feel is true and I hope you will like it. Thank you for reading this.

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